i said to myself in o9 i do things differently.
i said i would stop tryna be everything to everybody. stop over extendin myself man. im a people pleaser and thats a negative because tryin to make everybody happy usually leaves me tired and bitchy.
i also said i was going to think more closely about the decisions i make. i am really jus go wit the flow but being go wit the flow can be a negative too. i quit h&m cus i didnt feel like goin to work one day. no call no show. next day same shit. so eventually i just called to quit. same with my restuarant job, my security job, and my first college. it not that things were hard i just wanted somethin different. somethin new.something fulfilling. time doesnt roll backwards and im getting older. i really am not tryna be a 30 year old massage therapist/surfer/folk dancer.
the last thing i said was i was gonna think less in my relationships. i get in situations where i just cant seem to let my guard down. this means im dolo all the time. this doesnt require explaination cus it is what it is. hopefully i can switch direction or at least get my life together.
maybe tomorrow i can better express myself im dumb tired rite now. read it a couple times tho i kno it makes some kind of sense
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