my relationship wit hiphop

[listening to I USED TO LOVE H.E.R. by common]

i loved her too.
i mean i had my moments wen i was with the whackness. yea i cranked that soulja boy once or twice. and yea i was n tha club hollerin "AY BAYBAY" and "wipe me down" but it didnt mean nothin. i didnt buy lil mamas album but ma lipgloss was poppin hella extra wen she came out. i didnt get silly but i did the chicken noodle soup wen nobody was lookin. so what i did the laffy taffy. so what i was bangin gangsta rap hard body but not livin wat i was talkin. truthfully neither was most of the rappers.

i thought i was evolving with u. laughing AT them not WiTH them. having a good time. isnt that what music is about? forget substance, creativity,& lyrics with content. forget the issues man lets just make it rain in the club, holla ballllllin and lean back.

i guess i was off base. i thought it was u i was rockin wit all these days. but now i see where i went wrong.. my problem is my addiction. addiction to music. addicted to the feeling i get. addicted to the place it takes me. even wen i was leanin and rockin n the club i always settled in with some electric relaxation, cus tribe never did me dirty. and wen i needed to feel good about me i listened to mos & kweli talk about us brown skin ladies. blackstar album was poetry. commons words flow through my veins. mos defs words reach my heart. a tribe called quest keeps it beating. i let Lupe Fiasco speak for me when im tongue tied.i am a music junkie. but i dont want to be fixed. i NEED this. i fiend for it.
..this one is for u hiphop, i used to love u and i still do..