feeling some kinda way [as always]

"they cant comprehend, or even come close to undersatndin' him.i guess if i was borin' they would love me more. guess if i was simple in the mind everything will be fine."
-KiD CuDi

whats the realest lyric u've ever heard? whats the realest song? how did u feel when u heard it. do u remember where u was at or what u was doing?

the reason i love music is it can be a scapegoat.if u dont like who u are hide behind someone elses song. say how they feel even if u dont feel it urself. its better to fake it rite..?


"..im thinkin GOD made me special here on purpose so all the while til im gone make my words important so if i slip away if i die today the last thing u remembered wont be about some applebottom jeans with the boots with the fur . baby how i dream of bein free since my birth cursed but the demons i confronted will disperse. have u ever heard of some shit so [real] beyond from the heart from the soul u can feel."

It can also be a way to deal with reality. it can make it easier. it can make u feel better about urself and ur situation. whats real in your life. i can identify with my favorite artist. i can identify with their words. its nice to feel understood. music is one hellofaDRUG
[rick james voice]


whats the point of this blog? to announce i have a new favo rapper. i feel like KiD CuDi gets in my mind then makes songs. like he gets me,in a world where no1 gets me. we never met but he gets me. i still [love] mos def. u never forget ur first love. music or otherwise. but KiD CuDi is ... well he ..idk. i just want to be friends with him. not a groupie. not a fan. but a friend.

"day n nite. the lonely loner seems to free his mind at nite."

see wat i mean.. am i not freeing my mind as u read?

Parents just dont understand

so i [was] geekin out on the net wen i got this

" u r too far away from home to not check in at least once a day. i am always calling u and texting u and leaving voice mails til ur machine fills up. u NEED to call me"

from my mother. ma message to her was "Ma..chill" now i know some one is out there cussin me out and giving me the importance of family yaap yaap but my message to u is "yo..chill"

i appreciate my mother for everything she has done and still does for me. as well as my brother who is more like my damn father[for better&worse] BUT im too old to be gettin chastised[via text messges] about not checking in. before i moved to new york i came and went as i pleased so why does the distance have moms goin crazy? there was a time wen i couldnt stand moms(everyone whispers omg did she just say that) but yes its true. honestly me and her started getting along better the month b4 i decided it was time to move. and now that we are seperated its all sunshine and rainbows. what is she soo concerned about? if somethin happenes to me it will happen. we grew up rather religious and were taught that our fate is pre determined by big homie the notourious G.O.D. so her spazzin and completley OD'n bout checkin in is pointless. idk wat my fate is but we will all see soon enough.

my move from the bay [cali stands up] to brooklyn was hella major. true story. anything can happen to me at any given time. true story.no amount of courtesy calls and check in will change fate.TRUE STORY

random plug: kid cudi [day & night] rather dope if i do say so myself

Who is Cavi♥

sidekick photographer.bay area representer.brooklyn resident.flaco fiend.music junkie.recently made a middle child.asshole.excellent joke teller.random.emotional yet lives behind clear glass wall.thinker.loads of useless info.pierced.tatted.outgoing secretly shy.says bitch way more then too much.loyal.the good the bad and the ugly all wrapped up into one [insert own word here] individual

so who is Cavi B. Doper?
...if idk u'll never find out

my relationship wit hiphop

[listening to I USED TO LOVE H.E.R. by common]

i loved her too.
i mean i had my moments wen i was with the whackness. yea i cranked that soulja boy once or twice. and yea i was n tha club hollerin "AY BAYBAY" and "wipe me down" but it didnt mean nothin. i didnt buy lil mamas album but ma lipgloss was poppin hella extra wen she came out. i didnt get silly but i did the chicken noodle soup wen nobody was lookin. so what i did the laffy taffy. so what i was bangin gangsta rap hard body but not livin wat i was talkin. truthfully neither was most of the rappers.

i thought i was evolving with u. laughing AT them not WiTH them. having a good time. isnt that what music is about? forget substance, creativity,& lyrics with content. forget the issues man lets just make it rain in the club, holla ballllllin and lean back.

i guess i was off base. i thought it was u i was rockin wit all these days. but now i see where i went wrong.. my problem is my addiction. addiction to music. addicted to the feeling i get. addicted to the place it takes me. even wen i was leanin and rockin n the club i always settled in with some electric relaxation, cus tribe never did me dirty. and wen i needed to feel good about me i listened to mos & kweli talk about us brown skin ladies. blackstar album was poetry. commons words flow through my veins. mos defs words reach my heart. a tribe called quest keeps it beating. i let Lupe Fiasco speak for me when im tongue tied.i am a music junkie. but i dont want to be fixed. i NEED this. i fiend for it.
..this one is for u hiphop, i used to love u and i still do..

so sick of love songs

ughh i need to retire my love songs cus i get soo emo after slappin them. im soo anti love cus its played out.

ok i know ur thinkin bitter bitch fall back but just go with it

now i am a solid young lady. i have a job, an apartment, moved out her alllll the way from cali, i go to school, i can have intelligent convos, im fun to be around and im funny and i am just well rounded. now i have to highlight the good because u kno the bad is coming next. I am super pickey. like super duper pickey wen it comes to dudes. all im looking for is someone who i can have a deep convo with. have a debate on music using valid arguments that actually make sense. have a job and a plan for the future. have goals in life. someone ambitious. someone faithful. i am secure. i am trusting and i want someone who can give that back. i want someone who wants to talk to me, someone who looks forward to spending time with me.i want someone who will call me just cus. i want someone to make time for me. i want someone to call me and sing little songs on my voice mail and save my text messages. someone to smile wen they hear my ringtone. i wanna have inside jokes that only we understand. and have a song that means alot to us together. little kisses here and there. holding hands in public and all that cupcake shit. but not OD. i want someone to understand wat im saying even wen im having a hard time voicing wat i mean. i want to be wanted. is that too much to ask??

unfortunatly for me it is and i know it. i understand it. im over it.

..but im still lonely

hater moment

This game is called WTF ARE THEY FAMOUS FOR?

ok so before i go in lemme just say i do not intend for these post be all negative and bitchy..

Kim kardashian. why the hell is she in magazines, on tv, and everywhere else? wat makes her news worthy? ok so she fuckd ray j. well let ray j tell it he's fuck alot of broads so y does everybody care so much about her? she was on dancin wit the stars puttin that big ass to shame, she got a show on E!, she was on trya [which is y i no longer watch tyra] and she keeps poppin up on my favo hiphop sites. and yes now i am bloggin about her. all i can say is make a sex tape wit a celeb all u low self esteem people out there. guarenteed u'll feel important after and u could get some major dough.

ok im off my hater shit [for now]

Random Rant on Sunday

Man I am so over havin the "real hiphop" convo with my retarted ass friends.

i think i am the last person on earth who respects my ears!

idk wats worse the fact that my friends dont know kidz n the hall, the cool kidz, or charles hamilton or that they dont care for mos def, q-tip [or tribe] or even my guilty pleasure that is Trey Songz.

i feel like i am n my own little world wen it comes to music, and actually having common sense and a conscience. yea im the weird-O. cus i care about not bein rude to total strangers, i say bless u wen random people sneeze, i give directions to the lost tourist wen i go into manhattan, and because i dont walk around looking mad at the world.because i dont fill my ipod full of bullshit ass music wit people braggin bout all the money THEY have when the rest of america is in a recession.. yea man im super wierd for that one.

so for the last time i will say hip hop is the house that R&B and Rap live n. hip hop is the genre of music and r&b and rap are like the sections. does that make sense. just because the content of rap isnt like it was wen Tribe was on top of the world doesnt mean its not hip hop anymore. or does it? last time i checked all the artist my ignorant ass friends are sayin r real hip hop artist were rappers. they rapped but they were still hiphop. am i just in lala land and everybody gets it but me? FlacoFiend@gmail.com please help me to understand before i have to cut one of them bitches.

idk if i can blog from jail so i reallllly dont want that to happen

FIND FLACO

if u know me [and how amazingly dope i am] then u kno that i am a fanatic of Mos Defs. its actually beyond a fan artist relationship because i want to know him and in my head i believe one day we are gonna be friends.

but anywhoo. i live n NY and have yet to spot flaco[ one of mos's nicknames] but my friends who r native new yorkers seen him too many times and count and they dont seem to care either. first of all how rude and second of all ewww eat a dick. ok enough of that..

so if u ever encounter Flaco and u snap a flick with him or of him send it to me at FlacoFiend@gmail.com i want real camera fone kodak moment kinda flicks not some professional photo that i can find on the net. Real. I will put it in my new blog section called [u guessed it] "FLACO FiEND" [maybe u didnt guess it] If u do it then thanks ur dope and i will show love to u and ur blog or whatever else. but if u have a pic and just dont wanna send it then i should tar and feather u [old school] then slap ur face off and leave u standin there faceless u asshole..

k thanks

THEY SO PAiD.. and im sooo broke:(

iM SO PAiD.. yea thats AKON's new record and boy o boy is it causin more then a few panties to bunch! fans are outraged sayng that we r in a reccession and him makin a record yellin im so paid is insensitive. well DUHH dipshits. NEWSFLASH artist been rubbin it n our face how much money they have since hiphop got commercial so y you mad now?

is it because every dollar the celebs have can be credited to people like us who get up and go to work and school everyday. the people who sleep over night in the ticket line then paid 300 dollars for a front row ticket and a chance to take a picture with the celebrity backstage,then when u get there act like they just have way better things to do. wait where was this rant going again? oh yea or is it because now jobs r cutting back wages and hours to save money and stores r jacking up prices and we r stuck trying to find a way to make it? or is it because we the consumers are left pullin lint from our pockets and celebrities r blowin money on ridiculous shit while we watch in awe.

yeaa imma go 'head & say all of thee above.. then imma say get the fuck over it cus hate it or love it THEY r soo PAID and WE r super BROKE in comparison. but does that mean on november 4th im not gonna go drop my 13 dollas on the q-tip cd or december 5th goin to support mos def by gettin that 12 dollar movie ticket? or does it mean i wont be throwin another penny at a rich ass kanye on november 25th? nope it means i will be doin all of thee above and maybe i will get to see the not so humble celebs make a video where they set a bin of 100 dollar bills on fire.. or just start eating $$ [tyga]

Kinda [CORNBALL] but still blog worthy

this is jsmooth kickin about the vote on November 4 aka OBAMA DAY aka QTIP day cus tips album does drop [ the renissance go support good music]

Pretty please with sugar on top make sure u go out and vote on election day. everybody is gettin juiced cus they see Obama got some steam and he leading in the polls but the polls r not the ballots THE ONLY POLL THAT COUNTS IS ON NOVEMBER 4TH.

Barack tha house yall!!

Groupie Bitch Book Club

So lets talk about Cum Queen aka Superhead. you all know her story she fucked and sucked some big names to get to the top and felt that it was worthy enough to publish in 2 books wit a third book coming. now the third book is about how to find and keep a man but that is laughable because she is SINGLE and can never [trap] a man for too long.u know the old saying u cant turn HOE to a house wife, well she is living breathing cum drinkin proof. she should write a manual on how to suck a mean dick cus that is the only thing she can do. i honestly wonder who is gonna be stupid enough to buy this book.. probably the same retarded ass idiots who bought the first 2. well idiots let me help u make some of the money back that u just threw away by telling u how to get ur own cum queen fame.

1 become a video hoe. 2 leave with the artist and suck dick till ur checks and tongue swell. 3 fuck any & everybody! managers, artist, security, janitors,publisher,shoe shiners & umbrella holders. 4 START SNITCHIN! write a book and put everybody on blast and just for scandal and to increase book sales call a few famous people gay, that'll sell tons. 5 suck and fuck anybody in a position to give u good promotion. 6 ride that wave til u are back to bein that groupie bitch and start a website where u can cause more drama then get stupid fuckin idiots to keep logging on everyday and make u feel relevant wen u are still wat u were from the jump, A NASTY ASS THROW AWAY BITCH WIT MEAN HEAD GAME BUT NO RELEVANCE IN ANYBODYS LIFE.. i mean at least after all this u can feel better about bein just a jump off and NOBODY ever wantin u as anything else.

i wonder what a meeting of the cum stains would be like between her, Nas's BM and Mos Def's ex aka the biggest mistake of his and my lifetime.

Somebody make this broad go away

Omg for the love of money can somebody please make superhead sit the fck down! i aint never ever ever seen somebody soo thirsty for attention yo its crazy. so if u dont know superheads little video post [they r on her site go to superhead queen cum guzzler.com to find them] she is always sitting down on her bed or somethin but the videos are always just face shoulder view. now she has a video out standing up rubbing and makin little hints towards her stomach..who the hell cares. she is already a mom and her son probably has nightmare cus she's sucked more dick then 20 veteran porn stars. she needs to reevaluate her life cus the shit is n shambles. doesnt she know we are laughing at her and not with her? doesnt she know she has no respect by anyone? Man that child[if she really is pregnant] couldnt be born into a worse home. i feel sorry no scratch that i pity that poor innocent life bein born into her bullshit, disfunctions and crazyness..








cum queen please take ur meds and sit down. ur 15 minutes of fame r up

Pray for Jennifer yall

Jennifer Hudson's mom and brother were found shot dead in their Chitown home. Below is the article..

CHICAGO (Reuters) – The mother and brother of Academy Award-winning actress Jennifer Hudson were found shot to death in the mother's Chicago home on Friday, media reported.

The Chicago Tribune said one of the victims was Hudson's mother, Darnell Donnerson. The entertainment website TMZ, citing a neighbor, said Hudson's brother Jason also was found dead.

A cousin who lived nearby discovered the bodies, TMZ said. The Tribune, quoting police, said the killings may be linked to a domestic disturbance.

The Chicago Police Department confirmed two people were found shot to death at the residence and said it was "being investigated as a homicide." But police did not release the identities of the victims or other details.

Other media reports said a 7-year-old boy, also a family member, was taken from the scene and that police had issued an alert for him.

Hudson won an Academy Award for her role in "Dream Girls."


..My prayers go to her at her time of need

Notorious extended trailor

woooooow so jan 16th is officially marked on my calendar. this movie looks soo good and Gravy plays big soo official. and even biggies real son got n on this as a young biggie. Man i neva been this off the hook biggie fan but when this movie comes out imma be lined up and pay my lil 12 bucks to see it.

well i hate to say i told u so but "everybody's favorite" hott mess drama site was wrong again.. janet posted a video on her hunny's youtube channel they didnt break up.



heres a word of advice. believe the opposite of whatever media take out reports. they are probably right about 29.5510932% of the time. its fckn crazy they have soo many followers. heres wat they do. find a picture, like all BLOGGERS, then examine the picture and make up a off the wall story about it. then they put something dramtic in the headline like "exclusive" or "breaking news" and call it a day.

Now what did u learn? those people who write for media take out r full of shit

Jimmy and his publicity stunts

Ok so allhiphop.com reports that Jim's entourage got into an altercation in ATL after the rap of ace hoods ride video featuring Juelz, Trey Songz and C O Ross blah blah..

Ok so this is just getting old. Jim jones can not stop causing drama in the media. Now I know his album is dropping and he wants his name on the tip of everybodys tongue but this aint the best way to go. He has beef with Nas, Hov, Kanye, TI,and Max b. This is starting to look like the 50 cent career early years. only difference is 50 was fully capable of killing Ja Rules career. imagine Jim Jones taking out Nas..Laughable right.

This is just an opinion but Jim really should be working on his music. Wen Max left he took all the lyrics with him[except the 200 something songs max left in a catalog that Jim is still using!]

These beefs must be personal cus musically all of thee above could kill him, resurrect him then murder that ass again. Is this just a genius strategy that I happened to miss or does jim jones really think beefin with the big dogs is gone lead him to a platinum album?

Ti and Rhi Rhi video tease

so here is the offical video tease for Live your life. this looks like a mini movie to me and i love it because those r the best kinds. in the lil teaser tip is not throwing around money which i love and dont got half naked video hooes shakin wat moms gave them which is another breath of fresh air. i dont understand how the video is done but we wont be able to check it out (& for some of u, hate on it) until the 28th.

im all about building a buzz but damn the songs been out long enough to say that it is officially hott. it looks good as far as i can tell but by the 28th we might be tired of the song not not care about the video..

HERE WE GO AGAIN..

ok so here is yet ANOTHER flavor of love spin off. its real and chance ( 2 of my favs from i love new york) trying to find their chance at love. ok but if there is one thing we learned from FOL 1,2,3 and New York 1,2 and charm school,rock of love and Tela Tequila or however u spell the bitch name, u aint gone fine love on these shows. now its just gettin sad and nothin will ever top flavor of love or even I love new york so why does vh1 even try?

• VH1 TV Shows
• Music Videos
• Celebrity Photos
• News & Gossip

where n tha world do these woman come from? i bet u soon as the show is over more then a few of these chicken head groupies will be on some magazine ass and titties out.. enjoy ur 15 minutes ladies cus in case u havent noticed all those before only got 15 minutes of fame and not a minute more

Funniest shit i've seen n a long time

WARNING THIS IS SOME FUNNY SHIT SO BE PREPARED TO FALL OUT!!

Penny for ya thoughts

Since a picture says a thousand words.. wat is this one sayin?




Lil John "ooh i wonder if that dress comes n MY size, maybe she'll let me borrow hers"

Rhi Rhi " damn i told lil john quit sweatin my wardrobe last time he streched out my Valentino grown and i cant even try to wear my louie sandals after them big country feet been in them.."

I WANNA THANK...

i'd like to thank Diddy for making Nelly the new sean john underwear model.(& i'd like to thank nelly for eatin his wheaties) one thousand thank yous to be exact. now so far its been a shirtless sexy nelly showin the top of the underwear waistband but we can only hope that they gone start showin the good shit. and we allll know wat the good shit is. i mean how can u tell if u want the draws if you cant actually see the draws??

ok im really jus tryna see wat nelly is droppin in them draws but never the less its time to make it happen. yaaaaaap!



..did i say thank u yet?

Lame duck move!

Ok so u world star hip hop heads definatly already seen the post for the video by that nobody dude who is j-holidays artist. Lacey who is a nobody in the industry made tha video sayin they filin papers on the former rapper from B2K and ex love of my life Lil Fizz.

i wish these zeros would stop comin on record makin videos and disses about celebs just so they can blow up they lil whack ass careers. like come on even jada and 50 squashed they beef so honestly who does that?? my advice to Lacey is get a hobby and please make sure that hobby is not makin videos about rappers who r soooo not relevent. thas the funny thing if u gone blow yoself up go big or go home. lil fizz is soo low on the totum poll only a even lamer person could feel justified in puttin him on blast.

k last thing that was retarted in this video was he mentioned not having time for this.. nobodies have all the time n tha world first of all and second of all he found time to make this video so his social calendar must be emptier then he wants us to believe.

Ne-Yo aint wit it..

Neyo came back with a response to yung bergs 8 minute taunt today and lets keep it all the way solid, he punked out. Neyo says,

"'That ain't my lane, dude. I don't beef. I don't do that. That ain't my thing. I don't do dis records. I don't do beef. I don't do any of that blogs talking about cats. I don't do that. That ain't my thing. I'm a grown man. I got money to make.'"

umm correct me if im wrong but didnt neyo utter bergs name first? yess and didnt neyo make a diss record for chris brown on tha played out A Milli beat? another yess

DEAR NEYO, try to keep track of these things so after you release these "grown man" statements you save yourself the pain of lookin even dumber then you do with ur hat off. thanksss

Kanye's newest song

ok so i bring u Kanyes newest joint off his album. its called heartless.

for tha record i fucks wit Kanye and his autotunes. he knows how to make a hit. in heartless the beat is bangiin and his lyrics r on point as usual. but did u expect less from tha international asshole?? download tha single support tha louie vitton don and let me know wat u think

Download Kanye West - Heartless



lets BOOGiE babyy

Janet & JD wats tha deal?

Celeb hot mess drama site has reported tha Janet and Jermaine Dupri split up. well if media take out reported it then more than likely the shit is faker then a 19 dolla bill[!]

i tend to always believe the opposite of wat mto say so i believe that janet and jd finally got hitched! congrats to one of the weirdest celeb couples of my time.

Round of applause

...im just sayin

ok sooo if u keep up wit celeb antics like i do then you already know Yung Berg is not havin all that good of luck with... well life in general. Now on some music shit he is doing quite well for himself. [i just cant seem to stop listening to Outerspace] but on some real life shit, not so much. he got tha business in detroit and disciplined in atl.well now its neyos turn to rough him up cus he is goin in. personally i think if anybody, he can take neyo but shit ya never kno. neyo said he would slap berg[3 fingers] and now berg is goin in on neyo.this is highly suspect. wen he was respondin to tha detroit situation he was on some "positive give love to the haters no negativity blah blah" and we still aint seen no kind of response to Maino almost takin his head off but now that its neyo turn he is tough guy again runnin his big trouble makin mouth. wen will he learn?

i think i should invent a hip hop muzzle for Berg cus he needs something fasst. it'll be his very own gangsta grill u bastards. [dj drama stand up.lol] My only advice to YB is fall all tha way back wit theses beefs cus u gettin ya noodle knocked around is not a good look.

Welcome bitches

[swizz beatz voice]
U kno who it is... iTS C' BiTCHES!


Bloggers of the world unite!

Well well well welcome to my blog. This is my shit so i can do whatever i want riiiite? yess im here to publish my thoughts, gossip, talk greezy, post music, hell virtually anything under the sun. Cboogie is tha name music, sex, advice and yess celebs r my game. whos ready to play??

lets BOOGiE baby[!!]